fate.
Sunday, April 22, 2007
i shall just leave myself into the hands of fate.
whatever comes, i'll just accept it.
if it's not to my liking, i may debate about it for abit.
but will accept it in the end.
how 'bout that? fair enough?
7:53 PM
should.
Saturday, April 21, 2007
i should be thankful for what i have.
shouldn't be sad all the time.
i tried. i'll wait for the end result.
but that shouldn't stop me from being happy, right?
well, if the plan for today fails,
i'll still rent
the holiday and watch it by myself.
11:07 AM
sometimes..
Friday, April 20, 2007
i think i got what i deserved.
i reaped what i sowed.
who's the one suffering now?
me.sometimes, i wish i lost my memory. then i won't be able to remember anything.
just sometimes...
11:33 PM
National Service.
Thursday, April 19, 2007
guess what?!
i got my enlistment letter yesterday. yep. im finally going to be a full-time ns-man soon.
am i excited? yea. abit, i think.
am i scared? yea. abit, i think.
am i panicking? yea. abit, i think.
i dont know. i dont really feel anything at the moment. maybe not yet. maybe when the time comes, i'll be panicking like hell. keyis told me to start running and stuff, just to get myself prepared. yea, maybe after i get well.
michael told me he received the enlistment letter too. hes going the day after me. we're going to the same camp. hahk! fate, i guess? will i be able to see him? will he laugh when he sees me suffering? will i laugh when i see him suffering? will WE laugh when WE see each other suffering? haha! i dont know. we'll just have to wait and see.
actually, to tell you the truth, im quite glad that it came early. so i can end early and find a proper job and all. or maybe i might take that counselling degree that i've been eyeing (but no support given from my family).
well, dont ask where im going or when im going in. im not gonna say. maybe i'll say one week or one day before. reason for that? i dont want people to count down and all. it can be quite nerve-wrecking. i hope i'll be fine in there. :S
so people, better plan outings for me. it might be the last time you may see my hair and the fair-skinned shukri.
1:19 PM
