bullshit.
Sunday, November 26, 2006
emo.im gonna be emo again tonight.
and YOU are the cause of it!
everyone has problems.
even the strongest person has problems.
even superman has problems.
i don mind listening to people's problems.
i can be a great listener.
believe me, i can.
i can even give a few advises.
but to actually thank me by not asking me how i am feeling is abit...
...
...
ok i don't know how to describe it.
its heart-wrenching when you have to listen to people's problems but no one listens to yours.
people are becoming un-appreciative nowadays.
is it a trend that i am unaware of?
- they claim that they're there for you when they aren't.
- they find you when they have no one else to turn to.
- they call you to go out with them when all of their other friends or gf/bf can't accompany them.
- you are there for them when they're down, but they are NEVER there when you need them.
- they care about themselves.
- they don't even know how you feel or don't even bother to ask.
- they cancel their plans with you after you have gotten so excited about it. anti-climax.
yes, i am troubled.
yes, i need a friend.
whom i can laugh with.
who can make me forget all my troubles.
but apparently, they are busy with their other-halfs.
they are too busy with their problems to remember me.
i know i can't be compared to their other-halfs.
im simply just a someone to them. not a somebody.
know the difference?
a someone is just a person who you find when you're bored.
a somebody is a person who you prioritize and care for.
so, im a someone.
i assure you, after people read this, they will say that im too emo.
that im too emotional.
they will tag at my tagboard, giving me useless advises.
they will talk to me in msn, asking me whats wrong when they're not sincere.
know what?
please don't bother anymore.
seriously.
do not even bother.
go concentrate on your own life.
find me only when you need someone to talk to.
find me only when your other-halfs can't go out with you.
find me only when you need something from me.
because..
i can't be bothered anymore.
im disappointed.
11:59 PM
SHUT UP!
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
SHUKRI!PLEASE.SHUT.UP!
SHUT.THE.F**K.UP!
im tempted to complain.
jealousy brewing up inside of me.
i want to have selective memory.
i want to forget all the unhappiness and depressing moments.
but to not to remember or go through unhappiness is not human.
haiz.
but hey hey hey!
shall not complain tonight.
tahan, shuk. tahannn~
haha. i skipped school today.
keyis is gonna scold me for sure. hah!
me and suzanne went gallavanting.
went to botanic gardens to take something from my uncle.
and then we went to town.
hah.
NORA! I WANT PICTURES!
will post the pics up as soon as i get it.
oh i have an announcement to make, ladies and gents.
IM FINALLY DONE WITH MY PP!
professional profiling, that is.
THANKS A MILLION AND TEN RAIHANAH ALI FOR HELPING OUT!
nanti i blanja u ice cream lima posen k? ikhlas dari hati.
hehe.
its already 3.42am.
and i can't sleep.
well actually i can.
but i refuse to.
crap.crap.crap.
23rd november.
two more days till 23rd november.
i think from now on, everytime it hits the 23rd of the month, i will..
will...
will.....
will........
spend the day keeping quiet and not talk so much.
nah, all of you don't need to know why.
ok shut uppp!
i shouldn't have.
i shouldn't have looked at your friend's blogs and look for your picture.
stupid shukri.
dumbass.
crap.crap.crap.
ok i want to try to sleep now.
tata titi tutu.
3:48 AM
WEDDING!
Sunday, November 19, 2006
ok.. so i attended my uncle's wedding.and to tell you the truth, i was bored and lazy.
bored because i had nothing to do.
lazy because i had to help out.
hah! contradicting again.
muhammad gossipped about me in his blog.
i love being gossipped.
so, gossip away!
haha!
and ya there were kendarats.
so why should i wash the dishes and help out?
they are paid to do it. HAHAHA!
*acting like a spoilt rich brat.*
replies to tags:
fifa : YEY!
siettie : hahaha. oops. soli.
hudz : hahaha. da start la berangan dier tu. ekek.
fai : ehh i kan emo king. hah!
Nas : hahahaha. i will tag..in time to come. hah!
rai : haha! yok kiter dangdut rai!
suzz : haha..then we say intercom oso. HAHAHAHA!
hilly : hey!!! long time no see. hahz.
been a long time since i posted any pics.
so, enjoy, ladies and gents.
*the top of the wedding cake. it says.."Sugiman & NorAiren"
*the second level of the cake. with decorative edible roses-thingy. nice, right!*
*the last level of the cake. a fountain.*
*so this is the cake. was totally mesmerized by it.*
*my sister and uncle*
*the pelamin.*
*my uncle, Sugiman.*
*the cake at the bride's side of the wedding reception.*
*the delicacies from the bride's side of the reception. dammit. should have went there!*
*the bride's pelamin.*
*the groom's pelamin.*
*the siblings*
*the cousins* (can u spot me?)
*caught in the act! hah!*
*haha..my cousin acting cute and my sister stoning.*
*the bride and groom cut their cake.*
*the dancing began*
*and it never stopped. *
9:34 PM
separated
Thursday, November 16, 2006
i know i swear not to be emo anymore.but i can't help it.
listen to the song in my blog.
read the lyrics.
damn sad, man.
i am dependent on love.
and that's scary.
Usher - Separated
Oh no, no, no, no
If love was a bird
Then we wouldn't have wings
If love was a sky
We'd be blue
If love was a choir
You and I could never sing
Cause love isn't for me and you
If love was an Oscar
You and I could never win
Cause we can never act out our parts
If love is the Bible
Then we are lost in sin
Because its not in our hearts
So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Cause we're better off, separated
If love was a fire
Then we have lost the spark
Love never felt so cold
If love was a light
Then we're lost in the dark
Left with no one to hold
If love was a sport
We're not on the same team
You and I are destined to lose
If love was an ocean
Then we are just a stream
Cause love isn't for me and you
So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Cause we're better off, separated
Girl I know we had some good times
It's sad but now we gotta say goodbye
Girl you know I love you, I can't deny
I can't say we didn't try to make it work for you and I
I know it hurts so much but it's best for us
Somewhere along this windy road we lost the trust
So I'll walk away so you don't have to see me cry
It's killing me so, why don't you go
So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Cause we're better off, separated
9:27 PM
hmm.
Monday, November 13, 2006
hey mrs muhammad. hah.thank you for replying.
was relieved when you said i wasnt the cause of it.
abit narcissist of me, but yea.
i don wan to be the reason for any fights between you two.
well, guess what?
i have been in your situation a million and three times.
so i know exactly what you feel. trust me!
well, you had the right to scream at him on the phone.
you're his gf.
i can understand your concern.
but have you ever thought that by screaming, will it solve the situation?
talk to him nicely first.
then if hes being unreasonable, scold him. haha!
give a piece of your mind.
girl power! (contradicting my own sex)
and sorry for lecturing. =S
i can see that you really care alot for him.
and trust me.
he really cares for you too.
he talks ALOT ALOT about you. haha.
and don worry, all good stuffs. honest!
i wasnt insulted or anything by your posts.
its just that i don want to be the reason for your quarells.
i do agree with you that friendship is more important than a relationship.
but please know that a good relationship is hard to come by.
only in a relationship can someone experience true greatness.
he can experience love, warmth, etc.
friendship can't offer that.
not.in.a.million-zillion.years.
haha. ok so my advise for you in the previous posts are redundant. hah!
true. true. there are some things that a man can't/refuse to open up to.
and they need a woman to actually open it up for them.
(ok that sounds wrong, but i hope you know what i mean.)
again, i am not the best person to listen to advices to.
but im just giving my opinions.
treasure him. love him. care for him. embrace him. understand him. listen to him.
and you'll be a-ok!
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9:17 PM
yikes
you know what?this is going to be the last time that im going to be emo.
i swear. i hope.
well, i just wanted to say that i miss you.
yep. i do.
it was nice being with you.
i never regretted. seriously.
i hope you didnt as well.
hope you find someone who can really2 make you happy.
ok thats all.
haha!
oh on other news, i think im the cause for a couple's argument.
crap.
so sorry, miss gf.
didnt mean to be the cause of your argument with your mr bf.
i know that im not actually the right person to say this but..
your mr bf really really loves you.
he treasures you more than anything.
trust me, he does. =)
and i cant say that i know him more than you do (because you know him longer).
but..
...just because he doesnt show his feelings much to you or keep things from you or whatever hes doing, it doesnt mean that he loves you less or your love is unappreciated.
deep deep down his fist-sized heart, he loves you to the core!!
so, don worry so much.
he loves you as much as you love him.
when hes back, give him a big big hug and spend the whole day with him.
give him some TLC.
i bet he'll appreciate it.
haha.
isnt it funny how im giving love advices after ive fallen out of it?
ok i don know whether this advice is of any good, but i hope it will help you to relax, at least.
well, miss gf, i hope you know who you are.
yikes.
say goodbye to mr.emo shukri and hello to mr.happy-go-lucky-and-crazy-and-dirty-minded shukri.
hah!
2:52 PM
ponder.
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
"i hate you""you are so sensitive"
"be open!"
"you're boring"
"you are so bitchy"
"you are forever sad"
"you're childish"
"you think too much"
comments.
comments made to me by my loved ones.
but do the comments give me the strength to change or demoralise me?
i do admit that i am too sensitive.
i think too much.
i worry about the littlest thing.
i am egositic.
i refuse to change.
i always think im right.
i get agitated easily.
i always start a fight.
but why do i do the things that i do?
one simple answer:
because...
i am shukri!
that's me.
i do not know how to change.
help me please?
anyone?
1:47 AM
HAHA
Thursday, November 02, 2006
hahaha.im bored.
and this video always always ALWAYS crack me up.
me and rai's favorite video.
AHAK!
ENJOYYYY~
