jealous
Saturday, October 28, 2006
im green.green with envy.
im jealous.
jealous with everything around me.
i know. i know.
be thankful with what you already have.
but i cant help feeling jealous.
i don really care about material stuffs.
i don care if someone has the latest handphones or the latest laptop.
but all i want is for someone to love me whole-heartedly.
aww. haha!
you know what? i sound desperate.
stop it shuk!
i used to loveeee seeing couples holding hands.
hugging.
kissing.
in public places.
no, im not a pervert.
i just feel warm all over seeing couples do smtg together.
i used to love seeing couple blogs, couples saying sweet things in each other's tagboards.
but now, i just feel disgusted.
i feel like throwing stones at them everytime i see something like that.
why?
because im jealous.
yep yep.
jealousy is indeed a horrible thing.
people can do crazy things when they're jealous, trust me.
just like me.
see, im so jealous that im blogging.
hahaha!
thats crazy, rite? haha!
im so damn bored now.
no one to sms.
no one who smses.
no one to go out with.
no where to go.
H-E-L-P!
5:27 PM
so, let's talk about love, shall we?ok, so what's love gotta do, gotta do, gotta do with it?
haha. that was a song frm some female singer.
ok nvm.
lets start.
love.
everybody needs it.
everybody craves for it.
everybody yearns for it.
everybody wants it.
but when they have it, they dont know how to appreciate it.
they dont know how to embrace it.
instead, they take it for granted.
and in turn, hurt the other party because of their ungratefulness.
such behavior is despicable.
im not saying that im perfect.
im not saying that im someone who understands love inside out.
im merely speaking from my point of view.
as much as i hate to admit this, indeed, experience and wisdom comes with age.
the older you are, the more you understand how love or life or whatsoever works.
ive been in a few relationships myself.
and it has always been me who has been worrying so much for the other party.
but i did not get the same treatment in return.
instead, all i got was a feeling and expression so cold that it can freeze fire.
sometimes, i hate being me.
i hate being shukri.
who cares so much.
who doesnt know how to talk back.
who isnt strong enough to handle situations.
i want to be someone else.
i want to be nonchalant.
yes. thats it. nonchalant.
i want to let the other party experience what i experienced.
hmm.
ok i think im sour.
3:30 PM
fuu-huuu
Friday, October 27, 2006
yea didnt go to school yesterday.i shall not say that i was lazy to go.
i shall say that i am still in the festive mood.
ahahk.
so anyway..me and rai decided to skip yesterday's lesson to go..SHOPPING!
rai said she craved for mcdonald's breakfast.
ahahk. poor girl. one full month didnt get to eat her sausage egg mcmuffin.
went on to shop after that.
and met up with zaid along the way and he treated us to D.O.A.!
FULERMAKK~the movie power, man!
i give it a 9/10!
and ian, its not a bimbotic movie.
haha!
well anyway, i have nothing to do and..
...
....
.....
decided to be a MAT for the day.
enjoy the pics peepzz~
*shuk=mat*
*rai=bechok*
*zaid=contact lens guy*
*HAHA!*
*bechok and mat*
*mat and contact lens guy*
*i like this pic! i think i want to be a MAT. HAHA!*
oh ya!
today is the premiere of puteri gunung ledang on suria at 8.30!
and charmed is showing at the same time.
which one should i watch??
CRAP.
7:23 PM
wee
Saturday, October 21, 2006
gosh gosh gosh.this is christina aguilera's hurt video clip!
hope im the first to post this video in my blog.
ENJOY!
1:14 AM
oh wow.
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
ok i was bored so i decided to surf the world wide web and came across a blog.i was so...speechless after i read his entry.
its quite powerful.
here's his link.
CLICK HERE
read the entry titled "Sorry is the hardest word"
i hope you don mind me publicizing your blog, dear friend.
i just have to share it with everyone.
he's so knowledgeable about these things.
i was mesmerized reading his entry. seriously.
it just goes to show how much of a himbo i can get for not knowing anything like him.
:S
1:38 AM
yowwzaaa~
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
ladies and gentlemen, 7 more days!7 more days to HARI RAYA!!
can you believe how fast time flies?
with a blink of an eye and a flip of your hair, it's going to be raya soon.
i don have to lie and say that im not excited.
damn im excited.
very excited.
no im not hinking about how much cash i will get.
im 20 this year.
i don think i will be getting any.
but the thought of visiting people's houses and eating kueh2..
wow-wee! HAHA!
i skipped school today.
have Photography & Digital Imaging as my module today.
easiest module this semster.
but i decided to skip today.
and the reason why?
im lazy.
haha.
i thought of baking kueh today.
but since ibu didnt have any extra tupperware to store it, she told me not to bake first.
and now, im bored to tears.
someone ask me out please?
chase away my boredom.
pretty please with the strawberry and hot fudge ontop and top it up with nuts and caramel.
ok im making myself hungry. haha.
stop it, shuk!
ok i.ll stop here.
toodle doo~
12:40 PM
BBQ~
Sunday, October 15, 2006
well rotaract club of rp organized a fellowship at east coast yesterday.me, andrew and nora were the only year 3s there.
and there were about less than 15 people who came.
i shant comment on how the bbq went, ok.
hope nora will do that in her blog. haha.
well, pictures! pictures!
ENJOY!!
*cramped. constipated.*
*nora aka suzy aka suzanne!!*
*me n suzanne! eh like couple right. wear same color shirts. *
*suzanne loves this pic. coz i took it. lalala*
*amir standing and doing NOTHING! haha!*
*oh amir finally doing smtg. haha. kiding la amir. he was one of the most hardworking there. haha*
*adrian to the rescue!*
*what was i doing??*
*wah wah wah. siew huey chef la.*
*eh eh si fatin ni. eat eat eat! tak padan kecik*
*ahh finally fatin is cooking. hehe.*
*fad & fatin, posing while cooking.*
*suzy, moi, amir.*
*overexposed picture. but good la. cannot see my pimples!*
*nice right the side view. haha!*
*amir acting cute. with the mod hairstyle. inspired by twiggy!*
*angelina jolie wannabes. puuit! haha!*
*fad and nurul. both act cute! ACT CUTE!! HAHA!*
*fatin taking amir's picture*
*mata kecik.*
*the two most goodlooking mly guys there. (coz we're the only two mly guys)*
*gosh. u all donoe how to act cute one...haha!*
*amir! pervert eh! amik gambar pompuan2 smuer. keke*
*Amir's "angels".*
*wah posing maut*
*fierce shukri! fierce! do tyra banks proud. haha!*
*wah nice right! i took it!! lalala~*
4:36 PM
screw you!
Thursday, October 12, 2006
ok you know what?im done with "meditating" or whatever shit.
im gonna blog like theres no tomorrow.
and seriously, i don't think anyone reads my blog anyway.
so it doesn't make a difference as to whether im on a stupid hiatus or not.
well to a certain someone.
if you don't know the full story, then shut the hell up.
dont ask others to shut up or scold them as and when you like it.
get the full story first before judging.
to another certain someone, i don't know if what you're doing is good.
im just gonna wait and see.
if the outcome is what i expected it to be, then don expect me to be nice to you anymore.
you owe me so many things.
i was nice to you.
if you dare do something behind my back, don expect to get away that easily.
i'll make sure you cant produce babies EVER and i'll cook your eyes and let you eat them.
no names shall be mentioned.
but hell im tempted to.
guess what, bitches!
and im refering to EVERYONE!
don expect me to be nice to you anymore.
coz hell no im not gonna be nice to ingrates.
say goodbye to mr.nice guy and say hola to mr.bad ass!
you caused me to be like this.
i'll make sure you regret.
12:32 PM
hiatus.
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
Shukri's Inner-Self, Sukrik says:Shukri has gone on a hiatus.
He wants to meditate somewhere far.
He doesn't want anyone, ANYONE, to ask why.
He just wants all of you to mind your own business and F**K OFF!
Shukri apologizes if he's being a pain in the ass to anyone.
Shukri will therefore keep quiet from now till he feels like talking.
Please don't keep on asking him what happen.
Shukri says if you keep on asking him what happened, he will bite your ears off.
Please, when talking to him, do not aggravate him.
Do not make him angry.
Do not irritate him.
Shukri also says that he will be fine after a few days' of "meditation".
Ok, that's all.
It was nice talking to you all.
Shukri wishes you all the best.
Signing off,
Shukri's inner-self,
--sukrik.--
7:49 PM
why why why?
Sunday, October 08, 2006
a series of questions i will ask.silence i will get for answers.
boredom is what im feeling right now.
entertainment is what i need.
okok, shut up shukri.
shukri is trying to be like dr seuss.
but he fails miserably.
apparently hes not artistic or creative enough to be...creative.
answer me something, ladies and gentlemen.
why do the rich become richer, and the poor poorer?
why do bad people get what they want but good people don't?
why are people talented and im not?
why do the nice people treated badly?
and..
why do i ask these?
well, the main reason for me asking these is because...
i.am.bored.to.death.
its 4.52am and i have not slept yet.
not even for 5 seconds.
i cant sleep.
i think too much for something that does not exist.
and i worry too much.
i wont be surprised if one day (maybe next week) my hair turns grey and i have wrinkles all over my face.
you know what?
i hate thinking too much.
i hate worrying unnecessarily.
have you ever wished that someday, something happens to you.
and you end up in a hospital.
just because you want to know whether a person cares for you.
and to see whether he/she visits or cry for you.
i had to resort to wishing that happened to me just because i feel lonely and un-cared.
i disgust myself sometimes.
i hate it when i complain.
makes me look whiny and naggy.
but i do it anyways.
i wish you were proud of me.
i wish you would accept me for who i am.
and not change me just to suit your taste.
i wish you would understand.
i wish you can be in my shoes for a day and know what im feeling.
i wish i could read minds so i know what youre feeling.
but that wont happen.
see. im complaining again.
someone put scotch-tape on my mouth now, please.
school is becoming a pain.
and its just the third week of school.
GOSH!
im broke to the core.
i have barely enough to last for a month.
i guess i cant go out often then.
CRAP!
ok shukri is finally sleepy.
because hes bored.
so shukri is going to bed now.
good night!
kiss me!
