tata.

Monday, May 14, 2007

ladies and gents, as of now, say bye bye to me-eccentric.blogspot.com.

and say hi to...
http://pastenseofshake.livejournal.com

if you're lazy to copy and paste,
click here!

yey. ive finally changed to LJ.
re-link me k?

BYE BLOGSPOT!

12:20 AM

ok.

Sunday, May 13, 2007

"if you don't stand for something, you'll fall for anything."

from now on, i'll stand up for myself.
and no, no way are you going to step all over me anymore.
because enough. is. enough.
i'll stand up if you make me fall.
just you wait and see.

8:33 PM

but it's alright.

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

Lucie Silvas - What You're Made Of

Just like I predicted, we're at the point of no return
We can go backwards, and no corners have been turned
I can't control it, if I sink or if I swim
'Cause I chose the water that I'm in

And it makes no difference who is right or wrong
I deserve much more than this
'Cause there's only one thing I want

(Chorus)
If it's not what you're made of
You're not what I'm looking for
You were willing but unable to give me anymore
There's no way,
You're changing,
Cause some things will just never be mine,
You're in not love this time...but it's alright.

I hear you talking, but your words don't mean a thing
I doubt you ever put your heart into anything
It's not much to ask for, to get back what I put in
But I chose the waters that I'm in

And it makes no difference who is right or wrong
I deserve much more than this
'Cause there's only one thing I want

(Chorus)
If it's not what you're made of
You're not what I'm looking for
You were willing but unable to give me anymore
There's no way,
You're changing,
Cause some things will just never be mine
You're not in love this time...but it's alright.

What's your definition of the one?
What do you really want him to become?
No matter what I sacrifice it's still never enough.

Just like I predicted
I will sink before I swim
'Cause these are the waters that I'm in

(Chorus)
If it's not what you're made of
You're not what I'm looking for
You were willing, but unable to give me anymore
There's no way,
You're changing,
'Cause some things will just never be mine
You're not in love this time.
Oh, if it's not what you're made of
You're not what I'm looking for
You where willing, but unable to give me anymore
There's no way,
You're changing,
'Cause some things will just never be mine
You're not in love this time
You're not in love this time
You're not in love this time...

12:17 AM

fate.

Sunday, April 22, 2007

i shall just leave myself into the hands of fate.
whatever comes, i'll just accept it.
if it's not to my liking, i may debate about it for abit.
but will accept it in the end.
how 'bout that? fair enough?

7:53 PM

should.

Saturday, April 21, 2007

i should be thankful for what i have.
shouldn't be sad all the time.
i tried. i'll wait for the end result.
but that shouldn't stop me from being happy, right?
well, if the plan for today fails,
i'll still rent the holiday and watch it by myself.

11:07 AM

sometimes..

Friday, April 20, 2007

i think i got what i deserved.
i reaped what i sowed.
who's the one suffering now? me.
sometimes, i wish i lost my memory. then i won't be able to remember anything.
just sometimes...

11:33 PM

National Service.

Thursday, April 19, 2007

guess what?!

i got my enlistment letter yesterday. yep. im finally going to be a full-time ns-man soon.

am i excited? yea. abit, i think.
am i scared? yea. abit, i think.
am i panicking? yea. abit, i think.

i dont know. i dont really feel anything at the moment. maybe not yet. maybe when the time comes, i'll be panicking like hell. keyis told me to start running and stuff, just to get myself prepared. yea, maybe after i get well.

michael told me he received the enlistment letter too. hes going the day after me. we're going to the same camp. hahk! fate, i guess? will i be able to see him? will he laugh when he sees me suffering? will i laugh when i see him suffering? will WE laugh when WE see each other suffering? haha! i dont know. we'll just have to wait and see.

actually, to tell you the truth, im quite glad that it came early. so i can end early and find a proper job and all. or maybe i might take that counselling degree that i've been eyeing (but no support given from my family).

well, dont ask where im going or when im going in. im not gonna say. maybe i'll say one week or one day before. reason for that? i dont want people to count down and all. it can be quite nerve-wrecking. i hope i'll be fine in there. :S

so people, better plan outings for me. it might be the last time you may see my hair and the fair-skinned shukri.

1:19 PM